Cade & Courtney: gOiNg HoMe!!!

After we found out his weight gain at three in the morning on Wednesday I could not sleep knowing that there was a major possibility of our little monkey man coming home! I woke up at about five and had nothing to do because I had three and a half months to prepare for when our little boy joined us at home! I hopped in the shower and took my sweet sweet time getting ready! I told Cade I wanted to be down there when the doctors made their morning rounds and they did that around eight! We walked into the NICU with a huge duffle bag to bring all of Brogans belongings home in! We walked in there acting like they already told us he was going to be discharged that day! Thats the crazy thing about the NICU, they had been telling us Wednesday was the day but everything changes on an hourly basis in that place, it is such an emotional roller coaster, trust me!

You can ask my husband how CRAZY I was while we were going through all of this!

The doctors came in and talked about the other two girls in our room and then turned to us and asked how Brogan was doing... I quickly replied "great, ready to go home!" The doctor responded, "I know and we are trying to get him there." My heart sank, Brogan did the one thing they wanted to see! They stood around the computer with all of Brogans medical records on it and were discussing his stay in the NICU. I heard them talking about his blood pressure. Ever since Brogans surgery his blood pressure had been a little too high for their liking and they had done a few things to try and fix it but they never really found a reason as to why it was high so there wasn't much they could do!

I was about ready to spit fire! It seemed like there was always one more thing! It always seemed like we were never ever ever ever ever going to get to leave! I was livid, I was so angry that they were just now discussing his blood pressure and if there was anything they could do to lower it now... They had not talked about that in about two weeks, why now, why today, the day we were supposed to be going home! My mind was racing! The whole time we stayed in the NICU the nurses and doctors thanked us for our patience, kindness and mostly our understanding and that was all about to change! I just knew if the doctor told us that they were not going to discharge him I was going to become their worst nightmare! I could feel my face getting more and more red as they were standing there deciding what to do!

Finally, after what seemed like hours the doctor turned to us and said, "are you guys ready to go home?"

I had to swallow the big lump I had in my throat and get control of myself as I could feel tears begin to well up in my eyes! He had no idea how READY I was to take my baby home, ready was an understatement!

I said, "you have no idea how badly we want this little boy home!"

The doctor looked at me and said," I know he will do so much better at home but I will only send him home on one condition, that he has home care and physical therapy."

Are you kidding? That is it, no problem, done!

He thought about it a bit more and said, "ok, lets do it, lets get this boy home!"

I could not believe it, the doctors walked out of the room and I instantly stood up and started throwing stuff into the duffle bag! I think Cade made his first trip to the car about five minutes after they told us he could go home! It wasn't real, I was waiting for doctor Snider to come back in and say we changed our mind! I was so nervous Brogan was going to have a spell and stop breathing, or throw up like crazy or all of sudden not want to eat, or not poop and that we would have to stay!

It was final though, it was the day, the day we got to walk out of the NICU, down the hall, to the elevator, and through the hospital doors!

For the first time ever, in 96 days Brogan was going to wear pants, wear socks, breath fresh air, feel the warmth of the sun, go for a ride in the car, and see his real home! Cade and I were both so excited we didn't know what to do with ourselves! We had to wait for about five hours before we got to walk out of that place! Seriously the longest five hours of my life!

Here are some pictures of that wonderful day!